Thursday, 17 October 2013
Friday, 30 August 2013
2wo Hot!
Cheesy titles are the best.
Well, I was randomly cruising Youtube like I do sometimes, and was on a Rob Halford kick. I love that man. I came across a video for a song called "I Am A Pig" by his project 2wo. It is more industrial (thanks to Trent Reznor's influence, in fact, the project was signed to his lable), and the video is pretty damn awesome. Check it out!
The part with the boots is the best. -grin-
Well, I was randomly cruising Youtube like I do sometimes, and was on a Rob Halford kick. I love that man. I came across a video for a song called "I Am A Pig" by his project 2wo. It is more industrial (thanks to Trent Reznor's influence, in fact, the project was signed to his lable), and the video is pretty damn awesome. Check it out!
The part with the boots is the best. -grin-
Sunday, 12 May 2013
Passing Idle Time
Well, it has again been a while since I posted. I have been taking a short hiatus and concentrating on work since I got a promotion.
I forgot how nice it was just to sit down with friends for a drink or meal and just relax, not have to worry about anything or run an event/munch. Sir Wolf gave me a ring today and said Buster, his dog, was in town and they wanted to hang out. Although Sir Johnny was working and I had a bunch of running around to do, Roscoe and I met up with them. It was a short lunch but very nice.
It made me think about how I miss being the participant in events and munches. All the past ones (most anyway) I have hosted. Granted having events and munches even if I am the one to organize them is better than none at all. I just think the luncheon, the thought, it helped put some things into perspective again. It's not about putting in the event, it's about there being an event, about there being friends.
Wednesday, 30 January 2013
The Distance Is Great
I sent off a message to an online friend a little while ago, just to catch up with him as I enjoyed talking to him. I told him exactly that, I enjoy the little chats we have now and then. What he wrote back was more than I thought I would get.
"The distance is great and I take what conversation I can. You may not realize this (and I have most likely never said) but I do take inspiration from you. Yes....I'm not gay but I still apply the "pup" principals. You and [another fellow pup] have helped me a lot by just your words.
Anywho.....Do have a great day
-[Friend]"
I was expecting fun yet idle chat and here I get one of the greatest compliments I have ever gotten. Thank you dear friend. We may have not met in the real world, but your graciousness has reached me as much as it seems I have you.
"The distance is great and I take what conversation I can. You may not realize this (and I have most likely never said) but I do take inspiration from you. Yes....I'm not gay but I still apply the "pup" principals. You and [another fellow pup] have helped me a lot by just your words.
Anywho.....Do have a great day
-[Friend]"
I was expecting fun yet idle chat and here I get one of the greatest compliments I have ever gotten. Thank you dear friend. We may have not met in the real world, but your graciousness has reached me as much as it seems I have you.
Tuesday, 29 January 2013
More Metal In My Juuuuunk!
Not a fancy title name, I know. But it is true. I am fairly happy about it. I had my Prince Albert gauged up to 10 and got a lorum piercing. I have always wanted one and now I am glad I did.
To be honest, I went and ha it done as a pick-me-up. I was really depressed and decided to get my PA stretched. The combination of getting a "new" piercing and and endorphin rush I knew would pull me out of the rut I was in so I could try to move forward. While talking to the piercer, who happens to be a friend, she states that she thinks she has decides she wants to become a genital piercing specialist. However, lots of the piercings are pretty intense and she needs practise but not many people get a lot of the piercings. She said she needed a masochist or something. I instantly put up up hand and we both laughed.
It was exactly what I needed and though I still feel stressed, I am no longer depressed, and I have more awesome junk in my... Well... Junk.
To be honest, I went and ha it done as a pick-me-up. I was really depressed and decided to get my PA stretched. The combination of getting a "new" piercing and and endorphin rush I knew would pull me out of the rut I was in so I could try to move forward. While talking to the piercer, who happens to be a friend, she states that she thinks she has decides she wants to become a genital piercing specialist. However, lots of the piercings are pretty intense and she needs practise but not many people get a lot of the piercings. She said she needed a masochist or something. I instantly put up up hand and we both laughed.
It was exactly what I needed and though I still feel stressed, I am no longer depressed, and I have more awesome junk in my... Well... Junk.
Sunday, 27 January 2013
Boy Rene's Musings
A dear friend of mine, Boy Rene, has a blog of his own and he posted a little, I will say rant, that I think has some truth to it. With his permission, I have cross posted it here. You can find his blog at lthrboyblog.
"Collars: Your Mileage May Vary
I recently came accross an interesting blog entry. The blog post was about collars and their use.
One of the first points that the blogger says is that a collar should NEVER be used as a temporary device. From the blog: IT is NOT given after an hour trick or a weekend tryst.
The blogger then also goes into explaining about the idea of haveing three tiers of collars: Collar of Consideration, Collar of Training, and Permanent Collar. I'm not going to go into detail about this tripple-collar format, because personally, I don't get it. It's not for me. If I'm going to be collared by someone, then it generally means the same thing: For the duration that the collar is around my neck, it symbolizes protection (by the top), service (by the bottom), loyalty (from both), and a few other things. I just feel that going on into giving formal names for the 15 levels of collar you may have for your boys feels like an overly complicated and romanticized version of what I honestly feel doesn't need to be complicated, or made more then what I feel it really is: something symbolizing your relationship and attachment to the person who collared you.
But after reading the article, the tripple-collar thing isn't what really bugs me about this blog entry. What bothers be is this statement: IT is NOT given after an hour trick or a weekend tryst.
It's often said in a number of Leather circles and discussions that your Leather sexuality, like any sexuality, is a personal thing. Someone telling me that I'm not a real boy or I'm not a real Leatherman because I don't meet some checklist of protocols and standards that work in their world, is similar to telling me that I can't be gay because I don't wear the latest brands, do drag, go shopping every weekend, have a lisp, or any of the other stereotypes out there. I don't need to meet your requirements of what makes a boy or a Leatherman. All that matter is me being held accountable to myself, and to my Sir. Anything outside of that is irrelevant.
So with so many people vehemently agreeing that Leather sexuality is a very personal thing, and that painting everyone in the "community" with the same broad paintbrush is a waste of time... shouldn't the same be applied to collars and their use? I was reading a number of replies that were in total agreement with this post, and I've spoken to many others who I'm sure share the same view. But I also know many others (who, for the reccord, would deffinitaly be considered Old Guard for those of you reading this who actually gives two shits about the use of that term), who would laugh in the face of the writter of that blog. Many people growing up in Leather had collars used on them, or placed collars on other boys, almost entirely for the purpose of a temporary scene. When they took on a full-time or regular boy, there was no need to have a beefy chunk of metal around their neck reminding them of that fact. It just was. Many times the Sir might give the boy some token to carry on them or wear, but a chain or leather collar with a lock wasn't really the norm.
To my understanding, the more "formalized" use of collars wasn't really a commonplace thing until quite recently. I've also heard arguments that this adaptation of the use of collars originated more from heterosexual kink and Leather, as opposed to the gay Leather culture. Personally, I don't know, I wasn't around then. But I do see it as realistic that collars were less of a ritualistic, formal attire, and more of a play-based piece of gear.
To be fair, I haven't mentioned what my own personal take on collar use for myself, and I won't. That's not why I'm writting this blog post. What I'd like to impart you with, is just to be careful when talking about sexuality, even Leather sexuality, in broad terms. What works for you may not, and almost certainly WILL not, work for everyone around you. Learn the power of owning your statements and opinions. Instead of saying "Leather is (blah blah blah...)", try saying "In my opinion, Leather is..." or "For me...".
Becoming legalistic with your sexuality, especially when it's a sexuality that I'm pretty sure originated from sexual outlaws, is a dangerous thing, and personally, I find it laughable.
Leather is different for everyone. Many people acknowledge that... but could we please start acting like it?"
"Collars: Your Mileage May Vary
One of the first points that the blogger says is that a collar should NEVER be used as a temporary device. From the blog: IT is NOT given after an hour trick or a weekend tryst.
The blogger then also goes into explaining about the idea of haveing three tiers of collars: Collar of Consideration, Collar of Training, and Permanent Collar. I'm not going to go into detail about this tripple-collar format, because personally, I don't get it. It's not for me. If I'm going to be collared by someone, then it generally means the same thing: For the duration that the collar is around my neck, it symbolizes protection (by the top), service (by the bottom), loyalty (from both), and a few other things. I just feel that going on into giving formal names for the 15 levels of collar you may have for your boys feels like an overly complicated and romanticized version of what I honestly feel doesn't need to be complicated, or made more then what I feel it really is: something symbolizing your relationship and attachment to the person who collared you.
But after reading the article, the tripple-collar thing isn't what really bugs me about this blog entry. What bothers be is this statement: IT is NOT given after an hour trick or a weekend tryst.
It's often said in a number of Leather circles and discussions that your Leather sexuality, like any sexuality, is a personal thing. Someone telling me that I'm not a real boy or I'm not a real Leatherman because I don't meet some checklist of protocols and standards that work in their world, is similar to telling me that I can't be gay because I don't wear the latest brands, do drag, go shopping every weekend, have a lisp, or any of the other stereotypes out there. I don't need to meet your requirements of what makes a boy or a Leatherman. All that matter is me being held accountable to myself, and to my Sir. Anything outside of that is irrelevant.
So with so many people vehemently agreeing that Leather sexuality is a very personal thing, and that painting everyone in the "community" with the same broad paintbrush is a waste of time... shouldn't the same be applied to collars and their use? I was reading a number of replies that were in total agreement with this post, and I've spoken to many others who I'm sure share the same view. But I also know many others (who, for the reccord, would deffinitaly be considered Old Guard for those of you reading this who actually gives two shits about the use of that term), who would laugh in the face of the writter of that blog. Many people growing up in Leather had collars used on them, or placed collars on other boys, almost entirely for the purpose of a temporary scene. When they took on a full-time or regular boy, there was no need to have a beefy chunk of metal around their neck reminding them of that fact. It just was. Many times the Sir might give the boy some token to carry on them or wear, but a chain or leather collar with a lock wasn't really the norm.
To my understanding, the more "formalized" use of collars wasn't really a commonplace thing until quite recently. I've also heard arguments that this adaptation of the use of collars originated more from heterosexual kink and Leather, as opposed to the gay Leather culture. Personally, I don't know, I wasn't around then. But I do see it as realistic that collars were less of a ritualistic, formal attire, and more of a play-based piece of gear.
To be fair, I haven't mentioned what my own personal take on collar use for myself, and I won't. That's not why I'm writting this blog post. What I'd like to impart you with, is just to be careful when talking about sexuality, even Leather sexuality, in broad terms. What works for you may not, and almost certainly WILL not, work for everyone around you. Learn the power of owning your statements and opinions. Instead of saying "Leather is (blah blah blah...)", try saying "In my opinion, Leather is..." or "For me...".
Becoming legalistic with your sexuality, especially when it's a sexuality that I'm pretty sure originated from sexual outlaws, is a dangerous thing, and personally, I find it laughable.
Leather is different for everyone. Many people acknowledge that... but could we please start acting like it?"
Wednesday, 23 January 2013
Happy I Have A Handler!
Well, It literally dawned on my about 3 seconds before writing this post that I forgot to blog about something VERY important. After a rough morning, but a great day with my family, My boyfriend and his Sir, we came back home to our own stockings. Roscoe and I opened them. A squeaky toy and a neat bone shaped mat for dog bowls. Then, I see an extra present as it is handed to me by Johnny. I take off the firdt piece of tissue paper, then stick my hand in and grab a bunch. A lock suddenly falls into my lap, I look at the bunch of tissue paper in my hand, and see a gleaming silver chain hanging from it. I look at it, look at Johnny who has a nervous but gleaming smile, and look back at the collar only to have my own nervous but gleaming smile. I was just given a collar for Christmas! It was by far one of the best Christmas' I have had yet. I gladly accepted and knelt down for Johnny to lock the collar on. I was perpetually wagging the entire night.
The collar I was given was a temporary one I was told, until we can find a better one. I remember him that My best friend who is starting up a chain mail business made me a collar I like very much, so i showed it to him. He liked it and we put that one on.
The collar I was given was a temporary one I was told, until we can find a better one. I remember him that My best friend who is starting up a chain mail business made me a collar I like very much, so i showed it to him. He liked it and we put that one on.
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| The red and black chain mail collar made for me by me best friend, held around my neck by Sir Johnny's lock. |
Monday, 24 December 2012
A Very Puppy Christmas 2012
Sorry for such the delay in posts. Christmas came up on us fast.
The Calgary Kinky Kennel Club held it's second annual "A Very Puppy Christmas" party. It went very very well! I would personally like to thank Dan and Kevin for letting us use their loving home to host the party in. I think most of the success of the party goes to them! We couldn't of done it without you two! Another big thank to all who came! It would be nothing in absence of you! Pup Kota was a good sport when he was nominated for the "puppy present" adventure. He made a good present. :)
Here is to a great party and even greater friends and company. Merry Pupmas!
The Calgary Kinky Kennel Club held it's second annual "A Very Puppy Christmas" party. It went very very well! I would personally like to thank Dan and Kevin for letting us use their loving home to host the party in. I think most of the success of the party goes to them! We couldn't of done it without you two! Another big thank to all who came! It would be nothing in absence of you! Pup Kota was a good sport when he was nominated for the "puppy present" adventure. He made a good present. :)
Here is to a great party and even greater friends and company. Merry Pupmas!
Monday, 26 November 2012
With Warm Regards
I received a message yesterday from a person who was at the boot workshop I presented. I asked permission if I could post the message on here, as it touched me very much. So, here it is.
"Hi Berith,
i hope it is ok that i message you here even though you were so kind yesterday to give me your email address (which i no doubt will use in the future!).
i just wanted to say again how much i enjoyed your workshop yesterday. i felt incredibly honoured and privileged to sit with you and Your Sir while you finished His boots. i have to admit that i never have really gotten the whole "bootblacking" concept. Sir has tried to explain it to me, the depth, the connection, the feeling of it all ... but it escaped me ... that is, until yesterday. Dont get me wrong, i have done Sir's boots and i have enjoyed it to a certain extent, but i knew there was "something" missing. After watching how your Sir watched You, quietly sitting, soft smile, the light in His eyes ... gave me goosebumps. Although you were teaching and focused on many things at once, i was absolutley bowled over by the connectiong between the two of You as you did His boots. And i'm very happy to say that i think got "it" ... i dont want to be so bold to say i completely understand, as that will be my journey going forward, but You both opened a door to me that i am very excited about.
i am very excited to venture forth and start obtaining the items that will grow within my own bootblacking kit (with your guidance i hope!). i have a feeling your handout will be referred to often ... :)
Again, thank you so much for your time, your hard work, the sharing of your energy, and for opening my eyes to such possibilies. i do hope that we can stay in touch ...
Warm regards, vixengrl"
"Hi Berith,
i hope it is ok that i message you here even though you were so kind yesterday to give me your email address (which i no doubt will use in the future!).
i just wanted to say again how much i enjoyed your workshop yesterday. i felt incredibly honoured and privileged to sit with you and Your Sir while you finished His boots. i have to admit that i never have really gotten the whole "bootblacking" concept. Sir has tried to explain it to me, the depth, the connection, the feeling of it all ... but it escaped me ... that is, until yesterday. Dont get me wrong, i have done Sir's boots and i have enjoyed it to a certain extent, but i knew there was "something" missing. After watching how your Sir watched You, quietly sitting, soft smile, the light in His eyes ... gave me goosebumps. Although you were teaching and focused on many things at once, i was absolutley bowled over by the connectiong between the two of You as you did His boots. And i'm very happy to say that i think got "it" ... i dont want to be so bold to say i completely understand, as that will be my journey going forward, but You both opened a door to me that i am very excited about.
i am very excited to venture forth and start obtaining the items that will grow within my own bootblacking kit (with your guidance i hope!). i have a feeling your handout will be referred to often ... :)
Again, thank you so much for your time, your hard work, the sharing of your energy, and for opening my eyes to such possibilies. i do hope that we can stay in touch ...
Warm regards, vixengrl"
Saturday, 24 November 2012
Boots: Foundation of a Bond
Today, I gave a workshop with the above title. It went very well and I had lots of positive feed back from people who found it interesting and people who seemed very intrigued and eager to learn. It was a pleasure to teach, learn and make new friends.
From what is in a kit, to history and basic technique and even personal flare. Some people got down and dirty with me getting their hands covered in Huberd's and having a grand time. I learned a few things and came a little more out of my shell. It was wonderful. Thank you all for making the experience possible and making it a great one. I will save some information I shared for another post, but I will leave you with one quote I hold dear, that I heard from a friend.
From what is in a kit, to history and basic technique and even personal flare. Some people got down and dirty with me getting their hands covered in Huberd's and having a grand time. I learned a few things and came a little more out of my shell. It was wonderful. Thank you all for making the experience possible and making it a great one. I will save some information I shared for another post, but I will leave you with one quote I hold dear, that I heard from a friend.
"Boots tell a story, and it is our turn to get them ready for the next chapter."
Tuesday, 13 November 2012
Blanched By Boots
I had made another observation while at Taboo. Of course to the main population, the dungeon area seems "extreme" and/or "hardcore". However, I found it odd that people seemed to be more ok with flogging, than they were with boot blacking! I believe I got more odd looks with my boot blacking than anything else in the dungeon (maybe with the exception of the hook suspension). Sure it can be a very intimate, but I just thought it was odd that people seemed to be more afraid to get their boots shined than they were to walk up to the cross and touch it.
Sunday, 11 November 2012
A Beacon Of Light, In Kinky Times.
Taboo this weekend was a grand time. I got a nice fill of boot blacking and met some old friends, and made a few new ones. Even some friend I already had and didn't know where into certain things!
The big highlight was seeing a friend from high school. It has been pretty much exactly a year since I saw her last (at Taboo nonetheless) and reminiscing of her, I always thought of her as a little beacon of light on someones shoulder. Little miss open minded, but innocent and well behaved. I still see her that way, but I little less innocent. I always loved being around her as she made me smile and laugh. She commented that last time she saw me I looked as if I was "a kicked puppy", as I was not happy with my life. Now, I was feeling down because of the job I lost, but when she said I looked happier than last time she say me... Things sort of just clicked right then. Yeah, I lost my job but everything else is great. She may not be as innocent as I thought she was, but she is still the open minded and beacon of good that I thought she was. This is a bit of a thank you to her, that little angel that likes to sit on the left shoulder now and then.
I also got to run around in a giant inflatable hamster ball in a pool. What a fucking blast that was!
The big highlight was seeing a friend from high school. It has been pretty much exactly a year since I saw her last (at Taboo nonetheless) and reminiscing of her, I always thought of her as a little beacon of light on someones shoulder. Little miss open minded, but innocent and well behaved. I still see her that way, but I little less innocent. I always loved being around her as she made me smile and laugh. She commented that last time she saw me I looked as if I was "a kicked puppy", as I was not happy with my life. Now, I was feeling down because of the job I lost, but when she said I looked happier than last time she say me... Things sort of just clicked right then. Yeah, I lost my job but everything else is great. She may not be as innocent as I thought she was, but she is still the open minded and beacon of good that I thought she was. This is a bit of a thank you to her, that little angel that likes to sit on the left shoulder now and then.
I also got to run around in a giant inflatable hamster ball in a pool. What a fucking blast that was!
Thursday, 8 November 2012
A Taboo Experience
Yup, it is that time of year again. The Taboo, Naughty But Nice Sex Show starts tonight. It one place where I don't feel super anxious and nervous with the amounts of people that are there because I guess I just feel... in my element.
Yours truly has been offered the chance to work at Taboo this year, in the dungeon. I will be bootblacking and I am quite excited. It has been a while since I have blacked due to the Eagle closing. I was hoping I would have my home made custom kit up and running by now, but alas I do not. I will be spending my morning today coming up with a good set of rags and system going because I will be blacking for a couple of hours and I want to make sure that:
Yours truly has been offered the chance to work at Taboo this year, in the dungeon. I will be bootblacking and I am quite excited. It has been a while since I have blacked due to the Eagle closing. I was hoping I would have my home made custom kit up and running by now, but alas I do not. I will be spending my morning today coming up with a good set of rags and system going because I will be blacking for a couple of hours and I want to make sure that:
A) I am comfy,
B) The "blackee" is comfy,
C) I have enough rags to do a good job,
D) have good access to my supplies with out making a mess, and
E) Have a grand time
Since I just lost my job too (which sucks big time) I hope I make at least a little bit of money, but you know me... I hate pushing for tips for boot blacking. It just seems wrong to push.On the bright side, I guess it is cool how something that I get excited for every year and have fun at has happened to fall on the day after I am fired. I will do my best to take it as a pick-me-up. That being said, I am off to go work on things. See you all at Taboo this weekend!
Taboo, The Naughty but Nice Sex Show info can be found here.
Friday, 2 November 2012
A Boot-iful Lesson
Well, finally something exciting to post about. And a shout out to awful puns.
Your truly has been offered to opportunity to present a workshop class on bootblacking. I thank Draxa for pointing those putting it on in my direction and Sir Lionheart for allowing this circumstance to befall.
I am very nervous as I have never done anything quite like this before, but at the same time I am very excited. I know this event is not... a 101 workshop. It is more than just a "how to". It is about the connection that is or that can form between those involved. The sensuality and sensuousness of said connection and the emotions that occur. The voluptuousness. Naturally, I am a bit apprehensive. Am I good enough? Well I suspect if I wasn't, no one would have suggested me, nor come to me to ask. I surmise I am more overwrought than fearful in this case.
I suppose I should stock up on my blacking supplies. Perhaps I should even work on that custom boot kit box I've been dreaming and rambling about. Yeah, I think I am just getting really excited now. Here I go, off to put together my lesson.
For those of you who have Fetlife, here is a link to the event posted on there: In Leather Spirit, Fall Workshop
Your truly has been offered to opportunity to present a workshop class on bootblacking. I thank Draxa for pointing those putting it on in my direction and Sir Lionheart for allowing this circumstance to befall.
I am very nervous as I have never done anything quite like this before, but at the same time I am very excited. I know this event is not... a 101 workshop. It is more than just a "how to". It is about the connection that is or that can form between those involved. The sensuality and sensuousness of said connection and the emotions that occur. The voluptuousness. Naturally, I am a bit apprehensive. Am I good enough? Well I suspect if I wasn't, no one would have suggested me, nor come to me to ask. I surmise I am more overwrought than fearful in this case.
I suppose I should stock up on my blacking supplies. Perhaps I should even work on that custom boot kit box I've been dreaming and rambling about. Yeah, I think I am just getting really excited now. Here I go, off to put together my lesson.
For those of you who have Fetlife, here is a link to the event posted on there: In Leather Spirit, Fall Workshop
Not Long Forgotten
Well, Since I started my new job, it feels like that is all I have been doing. It isn't but it feels like it. I have nothing to really rant about. To point out or explain. Or to even ramble on about. That being said, I felt as if I needed to make a post.
I feel as though I have been slacking off for procrastinating my duties for the Calgary Kinky Kennel Club. Granted I haven't had as much time as I used to for it, however it still is important and dear to me. Things have and are being planned!
I feel as though I have been slacking off for procrastinating my duties for the Calgary Kinky Kennel Club. Granted I haven't had as much time as I used to for it, however it still is important and dear to me. Things have and are being planned!
Wednesday, 8 August 2012
Piercing Pleasure
Warning: Totally contains nudity.
As many of my close friends know, I love piercings. I adore, admire and amour them. There is just something incredible and captivating about them. It isn't just that they turn me on, but they just seem to peak my interest in the perfect manner.
I digress (as I usually do). As a belated birthday present, Roscoe took us to Tribal Expression to get Prince Alberts together. I have always wanted a PA so naturally I am oh so very enthused. While we wait for the piercer to set up, Roscoe, Johnny and I are sitting patiently... oh ok, Johnny and I were sitting patiently while Roscoe was fretting. He was super nervous I told him that everything is ok, it is just the usually nervousness before getting a new piercing. He agreed. After a little while, I go in to get the deed done. I drop trow and lay on the with my legs hanging lazily over the edge. I take note of the temperature in the place, as it is warmer than other piercing shops I have been in, which is nice as I am not shivering like a pupsicle. Every other time I am asked "You are shaking quite bad, are you nervous?" and my reply is always "N-no! I am just fucking c-cold!". So the piercer measures the stuff up and gets in position. The receiving tube, the most uncomfortable part, goes down my urethra, and she gets the needle close after explaining "No surprises, you'll know when its happening when I tell you to take a deep breath." She gets grabs my cock which startles me a bit, just enough to make me flinch which then brings the very tip of the needle to lightly prick the skin. This may have been the worst part, it didn't hurt, it was shock, just startling. Right away, the metal is shoved though my cock and into the receiving tube. A lot of guys cringe when they hear or think about this, but to be really honest, it didn't hurt. The worst part of the little bit of shock from the needle grazing me at first.
As the piercer gets up to get the jewelry I stop her to ask "This may be an odd request, but can I snag a picture of the needle in there?" She looks a bit stunned before a smile grin appears and retorts with "Uh, yeah... of course! Go ahead!" I look to Roscoe who then snaps a picture using his iPhone.
After the picture was grabbed, the piercer goes to put the jewelry in and I don't even feel a thing. Not like when people feel something slight and say the didn't feel a thing... I actually didn't feel a thing. It was easy. the easiest piercing I have got to date.
Time for a related side story? I think so! As I have said, I have always wanted a PA, ever since I knew about them. Back in high school I was bored a home one night and insanely horny, so I decide to give myself one. Yes you read that right. I gave myself a PA. I apparently did it "the way professionals with at least 20 years of experience do it". I took the needle and carefully slide it through the opening slit of my urethra until the proper point without managing to snag the tip on anything, and shoved the needle through the flesh, inside to outside. I took it out after a day, I don't know why. It wasn't getting infected or anything. I really wish I hadn't done so though. Alas, I got it done again so no point in regretting past decisions!
By Thor's hammer, I fucking love this thing. I am SO happy with it!
As many of my close friends know, I love piercings. I adore, admire and amour them. There is just something incredible and captivating about them. It isn't just that they turn me on, but they just seem to peak my interest in the perfect manner.
I digress (as I usually do). As a belated birthday present, Roscoe took us to Tribal Expression to get Prince Alberts together. I have always wanted a PA so naturally I am oh so very enthused. While we wait for the piercer to set up, Roscoe, Johnny and I are sitting patiently... oh ok, Johnny and I were sitting patiently while Roscoe was fretting. He was super nervous I told him that everything is ok, it is just the usually nervousness before getting a new piercing. He agreed. After a little while, I go in to get the deed done. I drop trow and lay on the with my legs hanging lazily over the edge. I take note of the temperature in the place, as it is warmer than other piercing shops I have been in, which is nice as I am not shivering like a pupsicle. Every other time I am asked "You are shaking quite bad, are you nervous?" and my reply is always "N-no! I am just fucking c-cold!". So the piercer measures the stuff up and gets in position. The receiving tube, the most uncomfortable part, goes down my urethra, and she gets the needle close after explaining "No surprises, you'll know when its happening when I tell you to take a deep breath." She gets grabs my cock which startles me a bit, just enough to make me flinch which then brings the very tip of the needle to lightly prick the skin. This may have been the worst part, it didn't hurt, it was shock, just startling. Right away, the metal is shoved though my cock and into the receiving tube. A lot of guys cringe when they hear or think about this, but to be really honest, it didn't hurt. The worst part of the little bit of shock from the needle grazing me at first.
As the piercer gets up to get the jewelry I stop her to ask "This may be an odd request, but can I snag a picture of the needle in there?" She looks a bit stunned before a smile grin appears and retorts with "Uh, yeah... of course! Go ahead!" I look to Roscoe who then snaps a picture using his iPhone.
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| The needle sticking out. I think it is a bit shocked due to what happened. |
Time for a related side story? I think so! As I have said, I have always wanted a PA, ever since I knew about them. Back in high school I was bored a home one night and insanely horny, so I decide to give myself one. Yes you read that right. I gave myself a PA. I apparently did it "the way professionals with at least 20 years of experience do it". I took the needle and carefully slide it through the opening slit of my urethra until the proper point without managing to snag the tip on anything, and shoved the needle through the flesh, inside to outside. I took it out after a day, I don't know why. It wasn't getting infected or anything. I really wish I hadn't done so though. Alas, I got it done again so no point in regretting past decisions!
By Thor's hammer, I fucking love this thing. I am SO happy with it!
Thursday, 2 August 2012
Low End, High Role
We we all know I am a sub. I like to be on the bottom of the totem pole, right? Well, Roscoe and I changed that the other day. Unbeknownst to the bearpup, I had more in stock than just dying his hair at his request.
Roscoe took some time off when Johnny arrived back in town. He expressed that he wanted to color his hair for the duration of time he had booked off (though it looking like if his work doesn't mind, it will be staying). So the moment we got back to his place, we set to work. We got things all ready and organized. First, we have to bleach his hair. Otherwise, the bright color may not show up, standard practice.
Next came the coloring. Roscoe LOVES light blue colors so we decided to go with a turquoise color. I used "Splat" which is a dye I have never used before and thus have little knowledge on how it behaves and such. I was told it last longer than the stuff I am used to so we decided to try it, as Culture Craze was out of the dye I usually use. It was VERY liquidy and ran onto the scalp with ease. I did not approve of this and for reason... it stained. I am unhappy with "splat" and probably will not use it again.
After waiting for the dye to take hold, he washed it out and then it was time to cut his hair. I did not cut it before hand for a reason (it is hard be be sexual with dye, oops! I foreshadowed!) . Roscoe knew the plans up to this point, but this is where I turned. I grabbed a leather leash I had sneakingly stashed nearby and tied his wrists together with it behind his back before plopping him down on the toilet seat. I grabbed the buzzer and held him close to my chest/stomache and ran the razor along his head. He hasn't seen his hair yet, so the only clue as to the color it is, is from the clippings falling down between our bodies onto the ground. I could not only see Roscoe dripping pre, but I felt it too.
After I was finished buzzing the bearpups hair into a nice mohawk, I blindfolded him and gave him a well deserved blow job and milked him the best a could. I think he enjoyed it. He at least says so. It was a fun time and I did enjoy my little bought being in charge.
For those of you who wish to know what Roscoes hair looks like at the end, well here you go! We eventually redyed his hair using Punky Colors, because I wasn't happy with the dye job Splat did.
Roscoe took some time off when Johnny arrived back in town. He expressed that he wanted to color his hair for the duration of time he had booked off (though it looking like if his work doesn't mind, it will be staying). So the moment we got back to his place, we set to work. We got things all ready and organized. First, we have to bleach his hair. Otherwise, the bright color may not show up, standard practice.
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| Bearpup with freshly bleached hair. |
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| Roscoe with the blue dye in the hair. |
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| Roscoe with his blue hair. You can see the leather leash used to restrain him. It wasn't tight because it had a nickle clip on it so I wanted him to be able to get out in case it touched his skin. |
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| All the hair clippings. I didn't sweep them up until after because I didn't want to ruin the scene. |
After I was finished buzzing the bearpups hair into a nice mohawk, I blindfolded him and gave him a well deserved blow job and milked him the best a could. I think he enjoyed it. He at least says so. It was a fun time and I did enjoy my little bought being in charge.
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| Bearpup in the midst of the action. This was the only in action shot I could get, as it is hard when your doing everything. Haha. |
For those of you who wish to know what Roscoes hair looks like at the end, well here you go! We eventually redyed his hair using Punky Colors, because I wasn't happy with the dye job Splat did.
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| Roscoe and his fancy dancy new blue mohawk! See that smile? Oh boy does he ever enjoy it! |
Tuesday, 24 July 2012
Interview With PupPup Part.2
Apparently my first interview was good enough that people were requesting more. So I had a follow up interview. Here it is!
Is puppy play sexual to you?
Puppy Play can be sexual. It started out that way but quickly became, I dare say it again, a life style. It is more of a way of life now, who I am, down to the core. This isn't to say it isn't sexual anymore. It is, or can be. It is just that sex isn't the driving force behind it anymore, though it certainly helps.
Have you mentored other pups?
I have, and am mentoring other pups. Any where from helping them out with questions, concerns and even “how to's”, to taking one or two under my own wing, err... paw. I am a sub myself, so it has been difficult sometimes, but when I help them grow and learn, I even grow and learn myself. It is a never ending circle of learning. As someone dear once told me, “the day you stop learning, is the day you die”.
What are you favorite toys to play with as a pup?
I assume by toys you mean doggy toys and such. I had this little red ball thing. I think I lost it at Smokey's house when he lived in Toronto. I miss it so much. Current favorites would have to be a stuffed stingray I got in San Francisco on my first trip to the International Leather Sir/boy contest and Dore Alley. There is a stuffed mallard duck with squeakies in him a dubbed Senor Quacks-a-lot. Smokey was kind enough to get him for me on a visit to him. That's all I can remember at this time but I am sure there is more. I like to chew.
What pup gear you own?
Oh boy... I own a custom Rubberdawg hood, leather fist mitts, a leather hood that was gifted to me (I believe it may be a Mr.S hood), the puppy restraints from Mr.S, a couple different pup hankies, a Squarepeg tail plug (with another on the way), too many collars and leashes to count, Mr.S tail harness and wrestling shoes. I add that in here because they have soft soles and hard soled shoes in a puppy mosh can hurt a lot. I have a bunch of other stuff that is on its way, but do not currently has in possession, so I will not count those.
How does it feel being owned?
It is a comforting feeling. Relaxed in a way. It is nice to have someone help you out with decision and things. Definitely awesome to have a place and someone I can comfortably pup out with.
How does it feel being a stray?
I fortunately don't really know what this is like. I lucked out with my owner. He is my high school sweetheart. We both knew we were kinky, he introduced me to a lot. I came to him with puppy play and gladly accepted it. There was one time were we almost went out separate ways, and that wasn't a fun time, but we worked through it. That is the closest I have got to being unowned.
How did you get your pup name?
I actually picked out my own name. My owner liked it and adopted it. I initially was looking for a stage name for a band project that fell through. I liked the name so much though, and put a lot of thought into it, so I wanted to keep it. I was raised with a religious background, and I won't go too much into that, but I wanted to name that was contrast to my real name which had a deeply religious meaning. I am fascinated by demonology, and while going through Solomon's 72 Demons one day I came across Berith. Ba'al Berith was seen as one who sat among the princes of hell. His names means either “covenant” or “to cut until blood appears”. It is kinda dark, but, I am a dark puppy. Happy, but dark. *wag*
Of course a few things have changed since that interview, but I answered for the time. My gear collection, for example, has grown quite a bit. Actually, it still is. I also don't really see it stopping anytime soon.
Is puppy play sexual to you?
Puppy Play can be sexual. It started out that way but quickly became, I dare say it again, a life style. It is more of a way of life now, who I am, down to the core. This isn't to say it isn't sexual anymore. It is, or can be. It is just that sex isn't the driving force behind it anymore, though it certainly helps.
Have you mentored other pups?
I have, and am mentoring other pups. Any where from helping them out with questions, concerns and even “how to's”, to taking one or two under my own wing, err... paw. I am a sub myself, so it has been difficult sometimes, but when I help them grow and learn, I even grow and learn myself. It is a never ending circle of learning. As someone dear once told me, “the day you stop learning, is the day you die”.
What are you favorite toys to play with as a pup?
I assume by toys you mean doggy toys and such. I had this little red ball thing. I think I lost it at Smokey's house when he lived in Toronto. I miss it so much. Current favorites would have to be a stuffed stingray I got in San Francisco on my first trip to the International Leather Sir/boy contest and Dore Alley. There is a stuffed mallard duck with squeakies in him a dubbed Senor Quacks-a-lot. Smokey was kind enough to get him for me on a visit to him. That's all I can remember at this time but I am sure there is more. I like to chew.
What pup gear you own?
Oh boy... I own a custom Rubberdawg hood, leather fist mitts, a leather hood that was gifted to me (I believe it may be a Mr.S hood), the puppy restraints from Mr.S, a couple different pup hankies, a Squarepeg tail plug (with another on the way), too many collars and leashes to count, Mr.S tail harness and wrestling shoes. I add that in here because they have soft soles and hard soled shoes in a puppy mosh can hurt a lot. I have a bunch of other stuff that is on its way, but do not currently has in possession, so I will not count those.
How does it feel being owned?
It is a comforting feeling. Relaxed in a way. It is nice to have someone help you out with decision and things. Definitely awesome to have a place and someone I can comfortably pup out with.
How does it feel being a stray?
I fortunately don't really know what this is like. I lucked out with my owner. He is my high school sweetheart. We both knew we were kinky, he introduced me to a lot. I came to him with puppy play and gladly accepted it. There was one time were we almost went out separate ways, and that wasn't a fun time, but we worked through it. That is the closest I have got to being unowned.
How did you get your pup name?
I actually picked out my own name. My owner liked it and adopted it. I initially was looking for a stage name for a band project that fell through. I liked the name so much though, and put a lot of thought into it, so I wanted to keep it. I was raised with a religious background, and I won't go too much into that, but I wanted to name that was contrast to my real name which had a deeply religious meaning. I am fascinated by demonology, and while going through Solomon's 72 Demons one day I came across Berith. Ba'al Berith was seen as one who sat among the princes of hell. His names means either “covenant” or “to cut until blood appears”. It is kinda dark, but, I am a dark puppy. Happy, but dark. *wag*
Of course a few things have changed since that interview, but I answered for the time. My gear collection, for example, has grown quite a bit. Actually, it still is. I also don't really see it stopping anytime soon.
Interveiw With PupPup Part:1
A while back, I was interviewed by a pup. I came across the interview on his blog. Here it is:
Introduction:
Hello folks! My name is Berith and I am a human puppy. Puppy play is a huge part of my life and I love to share it and spread the joy and knowledge of it. The world of the homo-canidae (Unofficial Latin term meaning “man-dog”) is a really wonderful thing. I am hoping that my interview here, no matter how short it is, will help others out. Gruff!
-With Wags, Berith
Man's Best Fiend
What does puppy play mean to you?
To me, puppy play can mean a few different things, and not all at once. Over all, puppy play has grown to be more than just a fetish. It is comfort, an escape and dare I say it, a life style. Sure it adds some spice in the bedroom, but that is not what it is all about. A few feelings and aspects come about from being a puppy. Assurance, freedom, relaxation, stress relief, protection, self fulfilment and as I said before, comfort. It is a state of body and mind.
How did you get into puppy play?
Kind of a funny story... I was looking for porn on the internet. You know, like everyone does now and then. Nothing I was seeing was doing it for me. I swear I spent a good couple of hours just browsing and looking for something. I do believe puppy play has boomed in popularity even since I got into it because when I first started looking, I couldn't find anything, even though I know know it was there, somewhere. However I digress, after searching I finally ended up coming across a video of a guy in a leather puppy hood and a tail. I remember thinking to myself “Yeah, yeah that's it. That is me”. Ever since, ask anyone I know, I have been all about puppy play. It has become and is a huge part of my life.
How long you have been in the puppy community?
Approximately 5 years as of 2011. I have been dabbling in kink for about 6 or 7 years at this time. I have never looked back or regretted anything. Becoming part of the leather/ kink and pup communities has helped me in so many ways, and I do my best to give that in return.
Have you attended any fetish event? If not which would you want to attend?
Yes I have. Quite a few. Ranging from kink camps to bar nights, to events purely geared towards gay men to pan-sexual events. I have even have had the opportunity to organize my own events. Yes, you can guess one event or two was a puppy event. I have also had the pleasure of giving a helping paw at a few events as well. I have even taken place in competitions. I am the co-founder of the local human canine unit, “Calgary Kinky Kennel Club”, and it is doing very well. We have monthly munches and such. Attending and taking part in events I think is very important. There you can learn, grow and gain a sense of self importance. On top of that, you gain knowledge, while hopefully having fun. Knowledge is safety and I believe a lot of people can and do get into unsafe situations because they do not know.
How do you get into the pup headspace?
A lot of people say that having a collar put on them works the best. Not for me. I always wear my chain mail collar. The collar may add a something to the mind space, but since I wear it all the time, it has more so become a part of me, than an accessory. A few things can get me into the head space. There are two specific ones. One is wearing my hood. I don't have as good peripheral vision while wearing the hood, and this causes me to concentrate on more what is in front of me. While doing so, I see the snout of my hood and it reminds me of how I look in the hood and triggers the head space. The other way I can enter the head space is very, very simple. A scritch, casual and intentional, behind the ears or a good petting does it. Not all the time, but most often. Sometimes it just clicks. I don't know how or why, but sometimes I am my human self and the the minutes I am pup. Just like that. I also have a habit of switching in mid sleep. People eventually realized I have switched in sleep when I start chasing rabbits in my dreams. When I fall asleep in puppy mode, I always wake up in it too.
Introduction:
Hello folks! My name is Berith and I am a human puppy. Puppy play is a huge part of my life and I love to share it and spread the joy and knowledge of it. The world of the homo-canidae (Unofficial Latin term meaning “man-dog”) is a really wonderful thing. I am hoping that my interview here, no matter how short it is, will help others out. Gruff!
-With Wags, Berith
Man's Best Fiend
What does puppy play mean to you?
To me, puppy play can mean a few different things, and not all at once. Over all, puppy play has grown to be more than just a fetish. It is comfort, an escape and dare I say it, a life style. Sure it adds some spice in the bedroom, but that is not what it is all about. A few feelings and aspects come about from being a puppy. Assurance, freedom, relaxation, stress relief, protection, self fulfilment and as I said before, comfort. It is a state of body and mind.
How did you get into puppy play?
Kind of a funny story... I was looking for porn on the internet. You know, like everyone does now and then. Nothing I was seeing was doing it for me. I swear I spent a good couple of hours just browsing and looking for something. I do believe puppy play has boomed in popularity even since I got into it because when I first started looking, I couldn't find anything, even though I know know it was there, somewhere. However I digress, after searching I finally ended up coming across a video of a guy in a leather puppy hood and a tail. I remember thinking to myself “Yeah, yeah that's it. That is me”. Ever since, ask anyone I know, I have been all about puppy play. It has become and is a huge part of my life.
How long you have been in the puppy community?
Approximately 5 years as of 2011. I have been dabbling in kink for about 6 or 7 years at this time. I have never looked back or regretted anything. Becoming part of the leather/ kink and pup communities has helped me in so many ways, and I do my best to give that in return.
Have you attended any fetish event? If not which would you want to attend?
Yes I have. Quite a few. Ranging from kink camps to bar nights, to events purely geared towards gay men to pan-sexual events. I have even have had the opportunity to organize my own events. Yes, you can guess one event or two was a puppy event. I have also had the pleasure of giving a helping paw at a few events as well. I have even taken place in competitions. I am the co-founder of the local human canine unit, “Calgary Kinky Kennel Club”, and it is doing very well. We have monthly munches and such. Attending and taking part in events I think is very important. There you can learn, grow and gain a sense of self importance. On top of that, you gain knowledge, while hopefully having fun. Knowledge is safety and I believe a lot of people can and do get into unsafe situations because they do not know.
How do you get into the pup headspace?
A lot of people say that having a collar put on them works the best. Not for me. I always wear my chain mail collar. The collar may add a something to the mind space, but since I wear it all the time, it has more so become a part of me, than an accessory. A few things can get me into the head space. There are two specific ones. One is wearing my hood. I don't have as good peripheral vision while wearing the hood, and this causes me to concentrate on more what is in front of me. While doing so, I see the snout of my hood and it reminds me of how I look in the hood and triggers the head space. The other way I can enter the head space is very, very simple. A scritch, casual and intentional, behind the ears or a good petting does it. Not all the time, but most often. Sometimes it just clicks. I don't know how or why, but sometimes I am my human self and the the minutes I am pup. Just like that. I also have a habit of switching in mid sleep. People eventually realized I have switched in sleep when I start chasing rabbits in my dreams. When I fall asleep in puppy mode, I always wake up in it too.
Wednesday, 18 July 2012
Blow Your Mind: Canine Head-Space
The following is cross-posted. It was an article I wrote for the Fetlife Puppy Play group.
There are a few questions that come up when people, especially new comers, talk about Puppy Play. I am talking about the ones regarding head-space. What is head-space? No no, that the area your head occupies, but your mind. Where is it at when you are in puppy mode? What is head-space exactly? Is head-space needed during play? How do I "get into it"?
These are all very good questions and ones worthy of knowing. First, what is it? Well, to get to that, let's recap over what puppy play is, by definition (keep in mind the definition isn't ALL what puppy play is, but the basis). Puppy play is a type of role play with an emphasis on the altered mind space and canine status. Hear that; altered mind space? These means that the mind morphs. It becomes, in this case, less human. Your mind starts to become more canine. Have you ever had such a fantastic day that you feel like you are the king or queen of any and all, and can nothing can ruin your day, when you can tackle anything that comes your way? What about that time playing a Mario Cart and how eager and into it you are, that you feel you are right there, as you lift off the seat and gear towards the left, hoping and praying it will help your cart turn? How about alcohol? Being drunk and having a grand time is a substance induced altered state of mind. Adrenaline is a good example too (and in some cases the exact chemical responsible for altered states of mind during play). Those are types of head space. There are tons of states for everyone, especially in the world of BDSM. Ever heard of sub-space? Same thing, just a little different of a world. There are different states of mind, but since this is about puppy play, that is what we are focusing on. Head-space is the altered state of mind, when one leaves what they were behind and chooses to enter a new realm of thinking. In this case, that realm happens to be canine. It becomes deeply personal, like you are not role playing as a dog, but like you have become the dog.
Have you ever heard of sub-frenzy and sub-drop? No? Well visit the article Saba wrote called Sub-Drop and Puppy Play. In my experience I have found that human-canines are very, VERY susceptible to these phenomenons.I am sure all sorts of subs, slave and you name it can fall influence to sub-drop and sub-frenzy, but it almost seems inherent for puppies. Maybe is it due to the style and type of play and head-space? After all, bio-pups love to play and never can get enough.
Is head-space needed for puppy play? Well, I am sure it is absolutely NEEDED, but it certainly does help. A lot in fact. Have you ever tried to do something, but weren't in the mood, what ever it may have been? I believe these situations to be akin. You can play without head-space but it may be harder and no where near as fun.
How does one get into this altered state of mind? Triggers. One of the best ways is using triggers. For some it can be having a tail plug in. Most often it is a collar. Some puppies are a separate dog collar they use for play time and when it is place around their neck and they hear the click of the buckle... BOOM! Instant head-space. What your trigger is, you will just have to find out. One big fantasy for some puppy players, and one that is indeed reachable, is being conditioned. When they hear or see something they are trained to take on as a trigger, such as a word, or a dog whistle or something, anything, they dissolve their human side and become canine-like. Condition, maybe even broken down to the point when this signal what ever it may be, turns them. Some puppies it comes naturally too. It is easy for them to slip in and out (sometimes out is just as hard as going in, sometimes even harder) of the puppy head-space. Some have done it already for year without even knowing what puppy play is. Playing dog in the school yard at lunchtime in elementary school. I even knew an autistic kid or two who's way of coping and letting stress go was to get under the table and start barking and acting like a puppy. Getting in the right head-space is harder for some than others but, like everything, can become easier with practice. Some people really enjoy being forced into the mind-space. In fact, some people can't get into it unless they are forced to. When they do however, they are usually very deep in it.
It even can be possible that one wont remember something or anything at all when in deep head-space. Why is that? I believe it is because it wasn't the human mind that experienced it, it was the canine part that did, so maybe the canine mind-space can remember it, who knows. Am I saying that an altered mind is equivalent to another personality? Well, I suppose that could be the case, but a think it not what most us us think of when we hear that. I wouldn't think it harmful or distressing. Sure it might make you have some questions, but that what this group is here for! I definitely would not go as far as calling it split personalities, because it isn't really split. It is just altered. Thte definition of "altered" is "to make change, modify by will". To modify or change, something has to be there already. You are still you, just... different.
Are their different type a canine specific head-space? Of course. I am sure head-space varies from person to person in all aspects. There are two most common types of canine head-space. That of "dog" and that of "pup". Your "dog" head-space is usually achieved by old, bigger males. They have the mentality and mannerisms of your bigger species of canine. Usually not as playful as puppies and tend to be a bit headstrong. Most of the time, are take on the alpha status. The most common head-space, that of the "puppy", tends to be very playful, loving and affectionate. They like to have someone to look up to, and very susceptible to sub-frenzy and drop.
Is partial head-space possible? Of course! A full, deep head-space is where your reality has be completely engulfed by canine status. You no longer think like a human, only like a dog, or at least what the human mind is capable of knowing what a dog thinks like. A partial head-space is where one can still perceive things as a human would. You can still... well, think. If you find yourself thinking "is that a ball? I should get the ball, dogs like balls", then your probably in partial head-space. This is the part that gets hard to explain. I am not saying dogs don't think, because they do. They just don't articulate or reason it like a human would. Reasoning? Did I really just mention that? Yes, I did. A dog's thoughts may not always be rational. Sometimes they may even be instinctual. Most often, a person stays in a partial head-space while in public. It is somewhat even recommended to do so. Why? Well, there are a few things one should be aware of in public. To play devil's advocate though, that is what handlers and training is for. Sometimes people just can't get into a full head-space unless certain conditions are right. That is fully acceptable and again, can be worked on with practice.
There you have mind-space. I hope the article has helped and encouraged you to think about your altered state of mind. If you have any questions, BRING 'EM! I am sure there is more out there.
There are a few questions that come up when people, especially new comers, talk about Puppy Play. I am talking about the ones regarding head-space. What is head-space? No no, that the area your head occupies, but your mind. Where is it at when you are in puppy mode? What is head-space exactly? Is head-space needed during play? How do I "get into it"?
These are all very good questions and ones worthy of knowing. First, what is it? Well, to get to that, let's recap over what puppy play is, by definition (keep in mind the definition isn't ALL what puppy play is, but the basis). Puppy play is a type of role play with an emphasis on the altered mind space and canine status. Hear that; altered mind space? These means that the mind morphs. It becomes, in this case, less human. Your mind starts to become more canine. Have you ever had such a fantastic day that you feel like you are the king or queen of any and all, and can nothing can ruin your day, when you can tackle anything that comes your way? What about that time playing a Mario Cart and how eager and into it you are, that you feel you are right there, as you lift off the seat and gear towards the left, hoping and praying it will help your cart turn? How about alcohol? Being drunk and having a grand time is a substance induced altered state of mind. Adrenaline is a good example too (and in some cases the exact chemical responsible for altered states of mind during play). Those are types of head space. There are tons of states for everyone, especially in the world of BDSM. Ever heard of sub-space? Same thing, just a little different of a world. There are different states of mind, but since this is about puppy play, that is what we are focusing on. Head-space is the altered state of mind, when one leaves what they were behind and chooses to enter a new realm of thinking. In this case, that realm happens to be canine. It becomes deeply personal, like you are not role playing as a dog, but like you have become the dog.
Have you ever heard of sub-frenzy and sub-drop? No? Well visit the article Saba wrote called Sub-Drop and Puppy Play. In my experience I have found that human-canines are very, VERY susceptible to these phenomenons.I am sure all sorts of subs, slave and you name it can fall influence to sub-drop and sub-frenzy, but it almost seems inherent for puppies. Maybe is it due to the style and type of play and head-space? After all, bio-pups love to play and never can get enough.
Is head-space needed for puppy play? Well, I am sure it is absolutely NEEDED, but it certainly does help. A lot in fact. Have you ever tried to do something, but weren't in the mood, what ever it may have been? I believe these situations to be akin. You can play without head-space but it may be harder and no where near as fun.
How does one get into this altered state of mind? Triggers. One of the best ways is using triggers. For some it can be having a tail plug in. Most often it is a collar. Some puppies are a separate dog collar they use for play time and when it is place around their neck and they hear the click of the buckle... BOOM! Instant head-space. What your trigger is, you will just have to find out. One big fantasy for some puppy players, and one that is indeed reachable, is being conditioned. When they hear or see something they are trained to take on as a trigger, such as a word, or a dog whistle or something, anything, they dissolve their human side and become canine-like. Condition, maybe even broken down to the point when this signal what ever it may be, turns them. Some puppies it comes naturally too. It is easy for them to slip in and out (sometimes out is just as hard as going in, sometimes even harder) of the puppy head-space. Some have done it already for year without even knowing what puppy play is. Playing dog in the school yard at lunchtime in elementary school. I even knew an autistic kid or two who's way of coping and letting stress go was to get under the table and start barking and acting like a puppy. Getting in the right head-space is harder for some than others but, like everything, can become easier with practice. Some people really enjoy being forced into the mind-space. In fact, some people can't get into it unless they are forced to. When they do however, they are usually very deep in it.
It even can be possible that one wont remember something or anything at all when in deep head-space. Why is that? I believe it is because it wasn't the human mind that experienced it, it was the canine part that did, so maybe the canine mind-space can remember it, who knows. Am I saying that an altered mind is equivalent to another personality? Well, I suppose that could be the case, but a think it not what most us us think of when we hear that. I wouldn't think it harmful or distressing. Sure it might make you have some questions, but that what this group is here for! I definitely would not go as far as calling it split personalities, because it isn't really split. It is just altered. Thte definition of "altered" is "to make change, modify by will". To modify or change, something has to be there already. You are still you, just... different.
Are their different type a canine specific head-space? Of course. I am sure head-space varies from person to person in all aspects. There are two most common types of canine head-space. That of "dog" and that of "pup". Your "dog" head-space is usually achieved by old, bigger males. They have the mentality and mannerisms of your bigger species of canine. Usually not as playful as puppies and tend to be a bit headstrong. Most of the time, are take on the alpha status. The most common head-space, that of the "puppy", tends to be very playful, loving and affectionate. They like to have someone to look up to, and very susceptible to sub-frenzy and drop.
Is partial head-space possible? Of course! A full, deep head-space is where your reality has be completely engulfed by canine status. You no longer think like a human, only like a dog, or at least what the human mind is capable of knowing what a dog thinks like. A partial head-space is where one can still perceive things as a human would. You can still... well, think. If you find yourself thinking "is that a ball? I should get the ball, dogs like balls", then your probably in partial head-space. This is the part that gets hard to explain. I am not saying dogs don't think, because they do. They just don't articulate or reason it like a human would. Reasoning? Did I really just mention that? Yes, I did. A dog's thoughts may not always be rational. Sometimes they may even be instinctual. Most often, a person stays in a partial head-space while in public. It is somewhat even recommended to do so. Why? Well, there are a few things one should be aware of in public. To play devil's advocate though, that is what handlers and training is for. Sometimes people just can't get into a full head-space unless certain conditions are right. That is fully acceptable and again, can be worked on with practice.
There you have mind-space. I hope the article has helped and encouraged you to think about your altered state of mind. If you have any questions, BRING 'EM! I am sure there is more out there.
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